I used to think spiritual seasons came one at a time. Like chapters in a book: you finish one, then start the next.
But lately? It feels like I’m living in all of them at once.
And oddly enough—I think that’s exactly where transformation happens.
This Season, In Layers
Right now, my life looks like this:
- Career: Winter. I quit a promising job with benefits, routine, and a steady paycheck to follow what felt like a whisper. Who does that? Apparently… me. Now I’m in St. Louis, jobless, and trying not to panic while also trying to trust that this still makes sense.
- Parenting: Summer. The kids are thriving. Our rhythm is surprisingly smooth—for now—and I’m trying not to overanalyze it. I see growth. I see joy. I see fruit.
- Marriage: Fall into Spring. After living apart for a year, my husband and I are finally back under one roof. Our communication is strong, but we’re relearning how to move in the same space, how to co-parent in real time again. It’s beautiful. It’s awkward. It’s both.
- Faith: Summer. My relationship with God feels anchored, consistent, and steady. I’m hearing Him clearly. He feels near. This is the part that’s holding everything else together.
- Calling & Identity: Spring. I feel like I’m standing at the edge of something—becoming someone I’ve only caught glimpses of. It’s exciting and uncomfortable. I don’t quite have the language yet, but I know I’m stepping into it.
One part of me is blooming. Another is barren. One is shifting. Another is standing firm.
And somehow, all of it belongs.
Maybe you’re here too. Juggling joy and fatigue, new beginnings and slow endings.
The Night I Felt It All at Once
The other night, I sat on the floor folding laundry, asking God why the quiet felt so loud.
My inbox was empty.
My toddler was singing.
My heart was full and also asking questions I didn’t know how to answer.
That’s when it hit me:
This isn’t confusion.
It’s coexistence.
It’s being faithful in the tension.
It’s honoring what is, even when I don’t know what’s next.
What the Beveres Reminded Me
I recently listened to John and Lisa Bevere talk about spiritual seasons. They said,
“Don’t miss the purpose of your season—even the one you don’t like.”
That hit.
They reminded me that winter isn’t dead. It’s just quiet. Roots are going deeper. Things are happening underground. You may not see growth, but that doesn’t mean God’s not working.
And this one made me laugh a little too hard:
“You can’t wear flip-flops in a snowstorm.”
Basically, don’t try to bring last season’s mindset into this one.
But what if you’re in multiple seasons at once?
Do you know that feeling, when part of you is thriving and blooming, but another part is grieving?
Maybe God Works in Layers on Purpose
Maybe it’s not confusion. Maybe it’s how God custom-builds growth.
I’ve learned I can be:
- Bold in one area and insecure in another.
- Grateful and grieving.
- Faith-filled and foggy.
All at the same time.
And that’s not a flaw in my faith.
That’s what becoming looks like.
So instead of asking “What season am I in?”
I’m asking:
- What’s God doing here?
- What do I need to let go of?
- How do I stop resisting and start cooperating?
Is there something small, but sacred, you’ve been clinging to in your layered season?
What’s Helping Me Stay Steady
A few things are carrying me through this layered stretch of life:
- Journaling (even if it’s just a line or two).
- Prayer walks that start quiet and usually end tearful or thankful—or both.
- Letting go of timelines.
- Talking to people who don’t try to fix it, but just nod and say, “I get it.”
Not every season needs a five-step plan. Sometimes it just needs permission to be what it is.
If You Feel Pulled Between Seasons
You’re not behind. You’re not scattered.
You’re being shaped.
This is the kind of spiritual formation that happens in layers:
- When one door closes and another hasn’t opened.
- When you’re holding joy in one hand and uncertainty in the other.
- When you have no map—but you do have peace.
Let that be enough for now.
What parts of your life feel like different seasons right now?
What might God be saying through the mix?
Ways to Walk This Out
- Hold space for both. Each morning, name one thing that feels joyful and one thing that feels hard. Let both be true.
- Create a seasonal rhythm map. Use a journal or blank page to sketch out what “season” different areas of your life feel like—work, parenting, spiritual life, dreams—and notice the mix.
- Pray from the in-between. Instead of asking for instant clarity, try this prayer: “God, show me how to be faithful even when my seasons don’t match.”
- Anchor in something small but steady. A daily walk, a verse, a playlist—something consistent that helps you re-center.
Rooted Reflection
Where are you feeling layered right now—emotionally, spiritually, or situationally?
Is there a part of your life that feels “out of sync” with the others—but still meaningful?
If you’re navigating a season that feels layered and mismatched, I’d love to hold space with you. My Sit With Me sessions are designed to help you find rhythm, clarity, and peace—even when life feels out of sync.
Prayer
God, help me stop trying to label what You’re doing and start trusting it.
Show me how to live inside each layer of this season without rushing to the next.
Help me bend, not break. Grow, not grasp.
And let these strange, beautiful, tangled layers make me more like You.
Amen.
May you know that God sees every layer you carry—and He’s forming something beautiful in the in-between.
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