There’s a strange kind of ache that comes from standing in between what you know and what you hope for. I’ve lived in that space a lot—especially lately.
I’ve gone back and forth in prayer. Journaled until my hand cramped. Asked God to speak louder, clearer, again. And I kept hearing: “You already know.”
But still, I lingered. Still, I hesitated. Still, I wondered if it was foolish to step forward without all the details worked out.
Maybe you’ve been there too—in that limbo space between clarity and obedience. Where it’s not confusion holding you back… it’s caution dressed up like wisdom. It feels holy to wait, but sometimes it’s just fear in disguise.
What I’m Sitting With
This week, I kept thinking about John 21—when Jesus appears to the disciples after His resurrection. What were they doing? Fishing.
They had just experienced the most transformational event of their lives, and still… they went back to what was familiar. What they knew. What was comfortable. But Jesus didn’t call them to return—He called them forward.
That passage has been tugging on me. I feel it in my spirit: don’t go back to what’s familiar just because it’s easier to explain. Even if God could bless me there… it doesn’t mean He’s calling me there.
So here I am. Resisting the urge to retreat into familiarity. Resisting the temptation to make decisions based on fear. And instead, choosing to move forward in faith—even when I’m unsure what success looks like.
Have you been feeling that gentle tug too?
The one that asks you to stay planted, to trust deeper, to choose obedience over understanding?
If so—me too. Let’s hold space for that together.
This Week, I Finally Said Yes
- I launched two offerings:
- Breakthrough Mapping Session — 1:1 clarity calls for women in transition
- Faithful Fruit Private Coaching — a 3-month sacred container for spiritually grounded women balancing motherhood and mission
- I updated my Calendly, wrote my thank-you note, connected PayPal, and published the page.
- I let the dream breathe.
And I reminded myself:
This isn’t hustle work. It’s holy becoming.
I’m not trying to build an empire. I’m trying to be obedient.
I’m not trying to impress. I’m trying to stay planted.Because if I can be stable, God will make me fruitful.
If you’re in that same space—hovering between the clarity and obedience, wondering what your next step might be—I’d be honored to hold space for you.
You don’t have to figure it all out before you begin. Sometimes the clarity comes after the yes.
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“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.”
—John 15:5 (NIV)
Stability isn’t glamorous. It doesn’t always come with applause or algorithms or attention. But it is sacred. And it’s where the fruit comes from.
God isn’t just interested in our gifts—He’s invested in our growth. And growth comes from staying connected. Remaining. Abiding.
For You, if You’re Wrestling Too
If this spoke to you—if you’ve ever found yourself stuck in the space between clarity and obedience—you’re not alone.
I wrote more about that wrestle in this post:
When Overthinking Feels Holier Than Obedience
It’s for the ones who’ve prayed for a sign, journaled through the what-ifs, and still hesitated to move. For those of us who’ve confused caution with faith and fear with wisdom. (Ask me how I know.)
Come sit with it awhile. You might see a bit of yourself there too.
Closing Prayer
Lord, Thank You for reminding me that the work isn’t just what I do with my hands—it’s what I allow You to do in my heart. Help me choose obedience, even when it’s uncomfortable. Help me stay planted, even when I want to run. And when I forget, remind me: You are the Gardener. And You make things grow.
Amen
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